Guess who’s back?! Me!! I know many of you are probably thinking, Really? A third time? Why come back?…. again?! Well, I’m hoping this post can help answer that question for you.
We should probably start with why I stopped writing in the first place…
I have not written a single blog post in nearly a year. A lot of it had to do with me going to college and not making time to actually write good, valuable content. I was in school trying to get a degree in something I didn’t care about while also trying to live my life the way I saw all the other girls my age living. Truthfully, I was partying none stop, eating horribly (or not at all), and ruining SO many connections with the people who truly cared about me, including my actual relationship. The first half of the past year was extremely destructive for me. I lost site of my path and what I wanted because I was too busy listening to others on what I should be doing with my life. A lot of this changed when I decided to make a big step for my makeup career and move to London for a month and a half to get certified as a Professional Freelance Makeup Artist. Being completely alone in a huge city, only knowing the random strangers in my classes really changed my perspective on the way I was living back at home. I started to learn so much about who I was and who I truly cared to keep a connection with being over 5,000 miles away.
When I got home from London I had a lot of decisions to make. I caused a lot of pain for the people closest to me during this time. My anxiety was at an all time high and finally I just said, fuck it. I realized this is my life and no one else is going to live it besides me. In that moment, I decided to leave Arizona State University, leave my parents home, and move in with my boyfriend. I had no money at the time and no job to get money from. Let’s just say I totally sucked for about a month. Finally, I got a job and started saving. I started doing more makeup, started a social media marketing agency with my boyfriend, and finally, I was HAPPY. Right now I am happy, but I am not at all content with my life. There’s still so much for me to do! So, last night at the spur of the moment, I once again had a fuck it moment. I was reading Crushing It! by Gary Vaynerchuck and reading all these amazing stories about people doing what they love and it made me realize, I need to be like them. I need to just do what makes me happy and writing about my life is a huge thing that makes me happy.
And here we are now. My first blog post in nearly a year. Damn, it feels amazing to be back and better.
In the past, a lot of my blog posts just felt like they were not me. I was so caught up in seeing the way other bloggers ran their blog that I didn’t let my blog be truly mine. From now on, you all are getting me for me. As raw as it gets.
Thank you everyone for reading this and welcome to the new and improved acceptablyemily.com